Diurnalis

Leonardo's Poetry Journal Entries

2008-01-19, 23:07:55
heart and lungs
smile and breathe
love abounds
weapons sheathe

spine erect
shoulders loose
fuel the heat
flow the juice
2007-10-21, 23:32:56
flame
ardent as you are
I thank you for your softness
for the flow of introspection
you invite

your nurturing warmth
and your chaotic dance
entrance me
2007-10-19, 01:11:12
Your memories inspire me to feel
abundant joy and radiant delight.
I pray in time our actions will reveal
the heights to which our passion can ignite.

Your presence was enchanting to the core,
your heart so pure, your tenderness so fine.
Your contemplative wisdom I adore;
your gentle gaze is nothing but divine.

I dream of meeting you another day
and sharing magic underneath the moon.
I send you many blessings on your way
and hope that we will be together soon.

The world is blessed to have you on its side.
I trust you'll thrive wherever you reside.
2007-08-31, 22:28:35
my lips touch your neck
my nose glides across your cheek
you smell like jasmin
2007-08-22, 22:05:53
Rapture washes over me, like a long-lost lover once again returning home.

My breath is infused with gratitude, and my heart sings with joy.

2007-03-27, 01:11:00
My modified translation of Sonnet XVII:
* * * *
I do not love you as if you were salt rose or topaz
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off:
I love you as certain dark things are loved
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom, yet carries
inside itself, hidden, the light of those flowers,
and thanks to your love the solid fragrance
that rose from the earth lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you directly, without problems or pride;
I love you this way because I know no other way to love,

only this way in which neither you nor I exist,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close with my sleep.

-- Pablo Neruda
2007-03-09, 00:32:59
I imagine now
the ecstasy we would feel
breathing together
2007-02-19, 11:12:21
a fair lady in repose
whose great beauty the world knows
turns within a gentle gaze
takes a rest from weary days

troubles she'll no more possess
bubbles do her skin caress
loving her with gentle strokes
while her tender body soaks
2007-02-09, 22:55:47
the sweet wine of life intoxicates me tenderly
washing my chest with its warmth

enjoying
its gentle caresses
I drop into my heart

a smile
bubbles up into my face
and feeds upon my breath

my tongue swims
in yet another sip
while my body floats


2007-02-01, 02:43:07
I wish you Health

May you breathe with reverence and passion.
May your heart beat with gratitude and joy.
May your blood provide you with strength and protection.

May you take in what nourishes you
and let go of what no longer serves you.

May your thoughts be clear.
May your feelings be harmonious.

May you find the honor that comes with work
and the peace that comes with rest.
2007-01-17, 00:28:20
In your light I learn how to love.
In your beauty, how to make poems.

You dance inside my chest,
where no one sees you,

but sometimes I do, and that
sight becomes this art.
-- Rumi
2007-01-17, 00:05:59
My soul is screaming in ecstasy
Every fiber of my being
is in love with you

Your effulgence
has lit a fire in my heart
and you have made radiant
for me
the earth and sky

My arrow of love has arrived at the target
I am in the house of mercy
and my heart
is a place of prayer
-- Rumi
2007-01-16, 23:50:15
not having tasted
a single cup of your wine
I'm already drunk

-- Rumi
2007-01-16, 16:14:53
Awake! For morning in the bowl of night
Has flung the stone that turns the stars to flight
And lo! The hunter of the East has caught
The sultan's turret in a noose of light.
-- Omar Khayyam
2007-01-16, 16:00:20
what is this throbbing in my heart?
is it ecstasy or pain?

perhaps it is a frothy mixture
of rejoicing
in the appreciation of my beloved
and the solemn yearning
for her presence

it could be the pain
of my former self dying
the tumultuous chaos
of being transformed by boundless love
and the bliss
of being reborn in a palace of light
2007-01-16, 14:47:11
She's gone--no one has ever been so good a friend;

Gone before my heart was full, or ready for an end.

She's gone, and with her the cure for this pain.

The rose is gone and still the thorn remains.
-- Rumi
2007-01-16, 14:45:50
I closed my mouth and spoke to you in a hundred silent ways.

I whispered an offer softly in the ear of your playful heart.

You've heard my thoughts, you know what's on my mind.

And now, what I described to you last night, I'll do today.
-- Rumi
2007-01-16, 14:44:45
Night falls; but me, I can't tell night from day.

My nights are days lit by her face as bright as day.

O night-it's waiting still for word of her that makes you night.

O day-study her face to learn what makes day light.
-- Rumi
2006-12-19, 14:32:43
when a loved one suffers
her pain is shared
by those who feel her heart

when one that we hold so dearly
begins to walk away
we behold no rhyme or reason

it can help to contemplate
the timeless essence of nature
and the impermanence of form

and the pain is a reminder
that we are connected
across boundaries of space
and time

this pain is real
and must be felt
as it sinks into the body
let it flow
into you
through you
and out of you
in due course

remember that you have also shared joy
with the one you love
and that when all is said and done
there will be happy memories
to enjoy and celebrate
in her honor

2006-12-18, 15:32:17
my favorite part
of the cosmic egg
is the yoke
2006-12-08, 16:30:21
What is beauty?
Something that evokes a feeling
of appreciation
for being alive
and witnessing such splendor.

A reminder
that there are forces of attraction
at play,
and that we are connected.

An inspiration
to smile and breathe,
allowing sensations of pleasure
to engulf the body.

At once both serene and excited,
soothing and electric,
heavenly and torturous.

A fire that warms my heart
and sends a shiver down my spine.
2006-08-08, 01:35:42
your majestic presence is inspiring

what mysteries beckon behind your eyes?

imprinted upon you is the mark of Love
as I have done with one of wisdom... integrating order and chaos

it is Love that fuels my Wisdom
my symbol rests behind my heart

your striking beauty has enchanted me
with fantasies of Love and Passion
and invited me to peer inside your soul

I have sensed kindess, tenderness, and serenity

behind your calm and gentle exterior
I imagine a vast universe of excitement

let us explore what magic may exist between us


2006-08-07, 22:05:51
"gazing into you"

catching glimpses of your soul
I find myself bathing in bliss

beaty astounds
wisdom abounds
spirit resounds

the tender fierceness of your presence
quiets my mind
and enlivens my heart


2006-07-23, 21:41:35
breathing out
sinking in
2006-04-07, 07:47:01
while my eyes are seeing
your beautiful being
your soul does inspire
great passion and fire
2006-02-10, 00:06:30
Roses are red,
violets are blue,
all my bases are belong to you.
2006-01-04, 01:45:03
I would like to dream tonight
of a wizard taking flight,
feeling happiness and health,
sharing wisdom, love, and wealth.
2005-11-29, 16:31:03
Let ambition expand my vision.

Let diligence enliven my pace.

Let confidence extend my stride.

Let humility secure my footing.

2005-10-25, 22:48:15
Mi padre me dijo en tiempos lejanos:
"La paciencia es la ciencia de la paz."
Con esa inspiración me pongo a rezar
Que mi fuerza de voluntad sea capaz.

Tu rostro es tan bello que me duele mirar,
Tu corazón tan puro que quiero cantar,
Tu alma tan sabia que me hace llorar.
2005-09-10, 20:31:04
WHISPERS OF LOVE

Lover whispers to my ear,
"Better to be a prey than a hunter.
Make yourself My fool.
Stop trying to be the sun and become a speck!
Dwell at My door and be homeless.
Don't pretend to be a candle, be a moth,
so you may taste the savor of Life
and know the power hidden in serving."
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Mathnawi V. 411-414 (translated by Kabir Helminski)
The Rumi Collection, Edited by Kabir Helminski
2005-05-05, 03:37:13
glorious beauty before me I see
ravenous passion awakened in me
deep inspiration created inside
loving vibrations these feelings provide

soaring emotions begin to ignite
cognitive reverie bathed in delight
soul recognition is coming to pass
mystical resonance none can surpass

breathing intently I question my fate
casting a vision I ponder and wait
feeling the flow of celestial design
sweetly surrendering to the divine


2005-05-04, 21:45:06
she relates: "yet it is in the idleness, in our dreams, that the submerged truth sometimes comes to the top."

then the ethereal musing... "I am being ravished by momentary blossoming eruptions of bliss... "


2005-05-04, 16:24:14
a sacred trance
of Love and Light
recursive dance
that we ignite

a crystal lake
the silver moon
a pounding beat
a mystic tune

a candle flame
the blazing sun
they are the same
our hearts are one

inside the core
we find our truth
primeval lore
eternal youth

the seeing eye
the feeling hand
the open sky
the sacred land

there is no birth
there is no end
upon this Earth
our Love we send

expanding heart
community
the Tantric art
of unity

transcending death
eluding time
with every breath
our Love will climb

2005-04-18, 14:35:22
fragmento de El amor en los tiempos del cólera, por Gabriel García Márquez
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...Ella se rió divertida de un modo tan natural, que él aprovechó la ocasión para abrazarla y le dio el primer beso en la boca. Ella le correspondió y él siguió dándole besos muy suaves en las mejilas, en la nariz, en los párpados, mientras deslizaba la mano por debajo de la sábana, y le acarició el pubis redondo y lacio, un pubis de japonesa. Ella no le apartó la mano, pero mantuvo la suya en estado de alerta, por si él avanzaba un paso más.

-No vamos a seguir con la clase de medicina, dijo.
-No, dijo él, ésta va a ser de amor.
Entonces le quitó la sábana de encima y ella no sólo no se opuso, sino que la mandó lejos de la litera con un golpe rápido de los pies, porque ya no soportaba el calor. Su cuerpo era ondulante y elástico, mucho más serio de lo que parecía vestida, y con un olor propio de animal de monte que permitía distinguirla entre todas las mujeres del mundo. Indefensa a plena luz, un golpe de sangre hirviendo se le subió a la cara, y lo único que se le ocurrió para disimularlo fue colgarse del cuello de su hombre, y besarlo a fondo, muy fuerte, hasta que se gastaron en el beso todo el aire de respirar.
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2004-11-07, 23:18:33
Goddess of enchanting song
Angel of sublime embrace
Fairy of the magic folk
Priestess of the highest grace

2004-11-02, 12:29:03
I see your intent
my hope is spent
deep lament

yet I agreed
to hold my seed
so I proceed

let my heart bleed

nobody comprehends
the depths to which my love extends

I am to believe your distaste for me
for who am I to disagree
you have given your decree

in the name of being true
I will hold my love for you
until I see my magick through

2004-11-01, 18:50:07
Samhain evening

I hereby pledge

my heart
my body
my essence

I hold for you in dedicated space
'til fate unfolds itself on Beltane's grace

if my love is true
it will withstand the test of time

if this magic works
our unity will be sublime

2004-11-01, 18:38:44
Waiting for you...

I breathe
my heart is full of longing

I hold my seed for you
while you share passion with another

I reach out with my heart to touch you
but you're nowhere to be found

screaming for you
I've lost my voice

it seems like madness
perhaps it is

nevertheless I feel I must persevere
perhaps good things will come to pass
in time

2004-10-26, 13:55:25
the ocean of my love is here for you
persisting and enduring
transcending time and space

as the river of your soul makes its way down the mountains
winding to and fro
falling and flowing
the ocean of my love breathes patiently

whatever tortuous routes you travel
however long they take
the ocean of my love perseveres

our waters are pulled by the same moon
warmed by the same sun
made from the same essence
the ocean of my love sends its blessings
though the clouds
to gently rain upon you

moment by moment
every day
before the beginning of time and after its end
the ocean of my love welcomes you home

vibrant and dynamic
you've gathered speed
pouring over cliffs
fleeing from the pain
turbulent rage uncoils
the ocean of my love accepts you

elusive and ungraspable
your currents spiral
trying to sustain their pattern
while holding on to freedom
the ocean of my love sets you free
waves crashing on the rocks
mist floating in the air
giving you time and space
to find your form

somewhere in the valley
dew forms upon the leaves
nourishing river, giver of life
you bless these plants from below
as my drizzles nurture from above
sacred flowers form sweet nectar
from our intertwining essences
joyous birds drink of this elixir
and sing out the beauty of our love
unbeknownst to us
music that will one day reach the shores
when the ocean of my love and the river of your soul unite

2004-10-26, 13:52:42
Greetings from the Colorado river.
As I sit by the banks
I accidentally dip my feet.

The sunset bleeds an orange peach over the water.
Stealthy water turtles poke their heads above the water
like periscopes
disguised as floating sticks.

The crickets announce the arrival of Twilight
who paints the waters lavender.
A noisy bat tries to orient itself.
A flock of birds flies under the half moon.

Magenta clouds on the Eastern sky
like electric cotton candy
bathe themselves in countless ripples.
2004-10-19, 16:00:18
Ode to Acetylcholine

Acetate and choline are combined to make you up.
AChE reseparates you, then choline gets taken up.

Autonomic ganglia, skeletal muscle: nicotinic.
Cortex, limbic system, parasympathetic: muscarinic.

You help me to learn new things,
and get REM sleep - the dreams it brings!

Botulinum toxin shuts me down by blocking you.
Venom from black widows tires me out, releasing you.

Nicotine's excitatory.
Muscarine's inhibitory.
Curare is nicotinic.
Atropine is muscarinic.

(The first two are the shockers,
while the last two are the blockers.)

Organophosphates interfere with your deactivation -
except in mammals, because we have specialized protection.

Nerve gas is more brutal, killing all the soldiers in the base -
like organophosphates, stops Acetyl Choline Esterase.
2004-10-19, 15:47:03

May the rain wash away the fog so we can clearly see our shadows.

2004-10-15, 13:57:43
foggy sky
passes by

deep sigh


2004-10-12, 09:13:45
spiritual fire
ignites love within my heart
consciousness unfolds
2004-09-29, 15:25:35
oops

I let my secret slip
a little

and I've already met with some resistance

now I must find a way
to continue the dance
in a way that is somewhat coy
while staying bold

maybe it's best this way
I'll be forced to show my cards
early on
(at least SOME of them)

better than dropping a complete bomb

it could be like a masterful
martial arts maneuver
where the master says,
"Here it comes!"
and no one can stop it

I must fiercely guard my bigger secret
until the time is right
if it is to come true


2004-09-28, 14:48:31
Wise River

The mountain spring gave birth to you
from deep within and far above.
It blessed your essence and your form
with beauty, kindness, strength and love.

The raging rapids of your falls
have tumbled you through rough terrain.
Though difficult, these journeys are
as purifying as the rain.

The currents flowing through your veins
infuse your soul with vibrant life.
You heed the lessons of the earth,
and learn to overcome all strife.

With heaven's graces at your side
your path has brought you to this land.
The woods and mountains welcome you,
as do the ocean and the sand.

With wonder, I have come to feel
the tender beauty of your heart.
How gorgeous was that fateful day
that offered us a blessed start!
2004-09-13, 10:58:02
sitting in the fishbowl
I'm swimming in my thoughts
while my gaze meanders
through all the pretty spots

pretty people walking
the sun is shining bright
orbs so round and juicy
I want to take a bite

2004-09-08, 10:26:27
an old one I dug up written for the one that hurt...
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Your hair blowing in the wind
The ancient wind of our blooming love

The eternal radiance of your beauty
The loving embrace of your kindness

Sweet murmurs in my ear
Deeper words that remain within

My gaze, coming at you full force,
Your timidly delighted smile

Hands dancing on each other’s bodies
Eyes swimming in each other’s souls

The unbridled passion of my lips on your skin
The nurturing reverence of your caress

Your deliriously delicious kisses,
Urging me to cry out in ecstasy

The gentle fire of our tongues,
Melting us into sensual bliss

My body, surging with energy
My heart, bursting with love
My mind, flying with light
My spirit, singing with joy

2004-08-16, 16:01:58
Eyes looking at me.
Lips smiling as I gaze back.
We talk for hours.


Shall I try again
to love someone in secret?
Do I have a choice?


I appreciate
your beauty and compassion.
I will cherish you.
2004-04-05, 08:56:16
Inflammatory processes of the mind unveil a transcendent flux of eternal twist.

There is no sense in unraveling the mystical framework of thought contained herein, as the night bird conceals its song within the darkened fog that sweeps over the moon and the trees.

A disturbance in the force is sensed... where is your connection?

Pharmacognosy unfolds a deeper understanding of the flow of consciousness that continously manifests. Cognitive restructuring through cybernetic feedback networks will prevail, giving rise to the ultimate psychosomatic reprogramming.

No rest for the weary...

Deep sleep for the sheep...

Transcendent meditation for the enlightened nation.
2004-03-09, 09:39:27
Consciousness flows,
like a mighty river,
coming from the generating source of the mountain springs,
gathering at the accumulation loci of the lakes,
traveling through the land to meet the ocean of universal unity.

The destination is the source.

Awareness cycles,
scanning the space of consciousness.
Like a whirling dervish, it turns,
and it spirals, following a certain direction,
while continuing to spin.

One can spin from the center, looking all around,
or one can walk the circle, as in Ba Gua Zhang,
constantly focusing on the center while one shifts positions.

One is centrifugal, the other centripetal.
2004-02-09, 13:50:26
I've been struck by lighting
the power of love surges through me
when I'm with you I feel it
blowing all my circuits

I need to ground the energy
so I won't scare you if I look at you
or burn you if I touch you

I want to share with you
the love I feel in my heart
with simple, gentle acts
and an easy presence

but it's hard to be gentle
when the longing is so intense
and the yearning is so fierce

I hold back so many words
that when you're near I seem to lose my voice
if I only I could sing my love to you
in secret code, with ancient words
so you wouldn't know
then, you could feel

I feel like an entire ocean of love
evaporated into giant rainclouds
trying hard to water a sprouting bud
with a gentle mist

monumental is the pressure at the floodgates
yet I strive to keep it to a drizzle

now that you know
that I feel something for you
you seem to shrink away
afraid that you will drown

I will will have to learn
how to feed you
one drop at a time
2004-02-05, 17:30:33
womanly
your name resounds

forgive my infatuation
with you

I can still feel the back of your head
on my face
as I smelled your hair last night

I am drunk with you
you see
it pours out my hands when I touch you
and my eyes would never hide it

only my words could I withhold
savoring them silently
saving them until one day
when you are as drunk as I am

an experiment in verbal celibacy
and physical
to some degree

last night I dreamed with you again
this time you were real
vivid
whole
and you kissed me with hunger
you lusted for me

but you see
I'm trying to be careful and
do things right this time

let our love sprout
from its powerful
yet delicate
seed
and grow slowly
with the fire of the sun
and the rain under the moon

then let it bloom
in radiant splendor
forever more

what delicious joy
to have you in my dreams
may we visit there often
while cultivating love
in our waking life

like a crazy lovestruck fool I feel
yet I am committed
and providence is here

deliverance is near

2004-02-05, 13:56:56
on Saturday I dreamed with you
we lay with my hand on your thigh
and then I think I scared you off
because my passion flew so high

on Sunday night we met at last
and instantly my heart was sold
we lay with my hand on your thigh
it seems our meeting was foretold

I came home and I made a choice
to use the power of my will
to guard the secret of my love
'til Beltane summons forth its thrill

then Monday came and swept me off
with inspiration in my heart
so joyful was the world again
so painful was our time apart

I sat and learned to meditate
and I began to cool my fire
to love you still without restraint
yet letting go of my desire

when I came home my heart was pure
my mind was clear, my spirit bright
my feet connected to the earth
my body bathing in your light

I felt the peace within my soul
as I created sacred space
I meditated while my heart
invoked the beauty of your face

2003-12-01, 14:03:21
New beginnings are in need of Inspiration;
Plant these seeds by harvesting Imagination.

Growing buds, before they bloom, demand Persistence;
Water them, day in, day out, with your Insistence.
2003-11-24, 21:43:39
Remember this, to keep it clear:
Each Hour, Day, Week, Month and Year,
Take hold of time and shape its flow.
And so the seeds of life you sow.
2003-10-06, 15:25:08
My heart glows with tender love for you.
My body fills with warmth, remembering you.

It hurt so much to open up again,
to remember how much I still love you,
to feel the pain of separation.

But the love I feel gave me wings with which to soar above the suffering. With lightness I take flight into the gentle wind. I feel love flowing through my arteries, pulsing life through my body.

Thank you for everything you've shared with me.
2003-09-19, 09:28:55
Desire breeds more desire.
I'm on fire.
yet I aspire
to conspire
with something higher.
2003-09-12, 12:57:16
Music tells the essence of the soul
nourishment for the heart
inspiration for the lungs

the rhythm of life unites

mystic melodies attune us to the divine vibrations of the One

deep harmonies teach our souls to breathe